Trying to back into a routine.
16 Jan 2009 1 Comment
in Homekeeping, Infertility, Miscarriage
I’m amazed at how easy it is to fall out of a routine. Then it’s so hard to get back on one. After we found out I was pregnant my DH didn’t want me to do anything around the house. One I didn’t feel like it. Nothing like morning sickness and fatigue. Two, I think he was afraid of losing the baby. So for probably a month I wasn’t allowed to life a finger. I have such a good hubby. Then we lost the baby and I didn’t feel like doing anything. I did what was necessary, but that was about it. We were in survival mode. I didn’t even really “cook”. I heated up food for us to eat. Now that time has passed I’m finally feeling up to getting around and doing things, but now I just have problems getting myself organized.
I did give my kitchen a good cleaning. It was shameful how it looked. Yesterday I worked on the living room some. I still have a few things I need to do in it, but today isn’t a good day. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not a bad day, but not a good one either. I’m just in a blah kinda mood. So I’m hoping by Monday, I’ll have my gumption back to being a keeper of my home, not a survivor of my home.
On the PCOS front, I lost a pound this week. Yay for me. I’m trying to eat much better which I think has in turn helped my moods some. I know that it won’t erase the grief, but none the less I am doing much better.
Jan 17, 2009 @ 00:06:09
I am so sorry to hear about your miscarriage. Grief is the natural way for your spirit to heal from this experience so just allow to feel it, if thats what you feel drawn to. I lost my baby after 6.5 weeks and I understand how you must be feeling, although our experience wasn’t necessarily the same. Its a positive sign that you are starting to take in interest in appearance of your home…. I did a segment on my online radio show about grief particularly with women who miscarry or are going through the fertility process, you might find this helpful. You will find it in the archive I think in November 2008 http://www.blogtalkradio.com/KeystoClarity-coach
My lovnig and healing thoughts are with you and your dear hubby.